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i think i have Obsessive-compulsive disorder?

Sunday, February 15, 2009 ♥ 2/15/2009 12:43:00 AM ♥


omg, i love joann so much! she's so efficient. i told her bout how i always washed my hands repeatedly with soap and re-organising my wardrobe from time to time according to colours or types on x'mas day. she suspected that i have obsessive-compulsive disorder. she forgot the name but she remembered it started with letter 'O'. i just checked my facebook message. it was from her.
Joann Choo
February 14 at 11:21pm
Symptoms related to performing tasks may include repeated hand washing or clearing of the throat; specific counting systems or counting of steps; doing repetitive actions—more generally, this can involve an obsession with numbers or types of numbers (e.g., odd numbers). For example, when somebody suffering from OCD leaves the house, they might tap the door knob 9 times and if they don't they will go into distress, panic and even at certain times, they will pass out. These obsessive behaviors can cause individuals to feel psychological distress, because they are very concerned about having "made mistakes" in the number of steps that they have taken, or the number of stairs on a staircase. For some people with OCD, these obsessive counting and re-counting tasks, along with the attendant anxiety and fear, can take hours of each day, which can make it hard for the person to fulfill their work, family, or social roles. In some cases, these behaviors can also cause adverse physical symptoms: people who obsessively wash their hands with antibacterial soap and hot water (to remove germs) can make their skin red and raw with dermatitis.[citation needed]
she is right! it really describes me lots. i wash my hand with soaps most of the time in a hand repeatedly. hence, i tell people that my hands are not as smooth as previously. it's smoother back then. oh well, many people still think that my hands are still smooth. ok, my old friends will know that my hands are not that baby soft anymore. :P

do you have any idea how much i hate filling forms or questionnaires where i have to fill in my bank account number or my identification card number and even my address? that explains the reason i spend extra time during pay day or when i shop online. it's too dreadful for me. i check my details several times. in fact, sometimes more than 10 times. i even ask my colleagues or sisters to help me check that i have filled it correctly.

i wash my legs numerous times after i go to the bathroom. sometimes even when i'm out shopping. haha... now you know the reason my legs are wet after i go to the washroom. i'm afraid of the germs. i sometimes hesitated for a long time before replying guys when they are ask me whether they can hug me. i have to smell whether they smell nice. if they smell nice, i presume that they are clean from germs. lol.... so sorry guys. it's my fault.

i love to stay with my family now. though sometimes i'm irritated but i'm happy most of the time. i'm always late for outings during college days as i have to check whether i have locked my wardrobe and apartment room plus doors several time. if kerry's with me, i'll ask her whether she recalls that i have locked everything. if she says she forgets, i'll run all the way up to 4th floor just to check it out several times.

i don't really like to take lrt or monorail alone because i'll end up thinking the possibility of me accidentally fall into railings and kill myself. ya, i know. i'm in deep trouble. perhaps i should try to relax. i guess it happens when i'm alone. if i feel safe, or that someone will be there to watch my back for me, i'll be laid back and not think so much. when mii is there, i always feel so safe. the smell of her makes me feel safe.

♥ kyliemc ♥

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