[quote name='digicrox' post='243312' date='Apr 1 2006, 12:10 PM']

It's okay ... like I said last night, that girl in the picture is Spiderman and you're
Peter Parker now. The difference between the normal person and the superhero is just a 'need' away. Seasoned models know WHEN to be 'Spiderman' and WHEN to return to Peter Parker.

Look at Peter Parker ... he is clumsy, blur and his boss scolds him almost everyday! But when he becomes Spiderman, the whole city only look at him awe and respect, simply becoz he's a superhero.

Maybe you realised that you have to be a lil' FAKE to be a model but what else is REAL in this world if you wanna be what you want to be? Guys have to modify their cars to attract attention, girls have to use this and that or wear this or that to look nicer, or you simply have to BE somebody else to fit in into a group of people. Nothing is real anymore, but thank God you dun have to pretend so much to be a model, just in front of the camera will do :P

It's very scary looking back at your own picture I know, but after ONE DAY having the make-up on, is the way people looked at you seemed different? Whether it's weird or not it does not matter ... the matter is, it's DIFFERENT when it's on.

You now realise that you have TWO personality in you : A GIRL Kylie and a WOMAN Kylie. The reason why you wanna stay a GIRL is becoz that side of you is more happy-go-lucky, less stress and more cheerful, whereas the WOMAN is definitely more stressing and accasionally might attract the wrong kind of attention.

Both person is a wonderful person, learn to live with them. You are what you are ... one BEAUTIFUL PACKAGE

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hmmm......actually gong gong is only half right.the reason i want to remain as a girl is not because being a girl i'll be more happy-go-lucky and more cheer cheerful.actually,i try to remain as a kid or at least i sometimes pretend to be one because it's easier that way.i dont have to face confrontations and realise how much i've hurted someone else.i dont really like making eye contacts with people[though i still do it often].can one really speak with his/her eyes?i realise that you can actually do that.or at least,some people can manage to do that.

few times,guys confronted me and they looked directly into my eyes.well,i hated that because i could see sadness in their eyes.i hated to admit the fact that i hurted them deeply.it left scars in my heart too.but there was only one of me and i couldnt be possibly be everyone's gf.it was kind of dramatic and i wished that things would be more simple,not much complications but guessed my wish never came true.twice-different places,different guys and it was still the same.history did repeat itself.

sometimes,in some situation,being cruel to others was for their own good.at least,they would lose hope and faith in me.or they would hate and tried to forget me.they would lead a better life and the cut would not be really that deep.being kind to them would only make them suffer even more.and in the end,i would suffer too as i couldnt bear to see them in that situation.gee,only god knew how much stress and sufferings i had back then.only my ex-roomies and ex-housemates knew how hurt and sad i was.only my mum knew how i cried myself to sleep almost every night[and that's the reason why she called me few times a day,just to check on me].sometimes i hated to go back to hometown during weekends as i had to face the reality.

being a girl was just a cover.erm,at least i could pretend to be blur when it wasnt the real case[ok,i was blur most of the time but sometimes,i was just pretending].being a girl gave me the right to remain childish and could throw tantrums whenever i like.being a girl could make problems be solved in a more simple way as others would help me solve them.being a girl meant that i didnt need to be sensible enough to understand other people's feelings....

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