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Emo emo emo

Friday, March 29, 2013 ♥ 3/29/2013 10:18:00 PM ♥


It's been such a long time since I have blogged. Being busy with life, oh well, mostly career. I guess it has taken a toll of my social life too. No longer being a social butterfly. Lost contact with most of my friends. It sounds sad especially when I treasure friendship to a great extent.

Like what most people say, when you gain something, you will lose something along the path. It depends on how you see it. It has never occurred in my mind that I will feel as empty as this. It feels like there is a really big space in this really small heart of mine. I guess I have spent too much time focussing on chasing something that I feel is really important until I neglect the rest. It is time to make a change.

Perhaps it is time to juggle everything at one go before I lose even further. Fear of being alone just makes me feel even more lost. By putting all eggs into one basket is way too dangerous plus I hurt myself along the journey. Never feel so insecure like this before. I am so tired of being the strong and outgoing one in other people's eyes. I have the right to be selfish and love myself even more. Laugh out loud when I feel like it and cry a bucket of tears when I cannot hold the sadness within me anymore. It has been a really really long time since I last cried. Being strong is so tough. Perhaps I should cry myself to sleep and wake up as a new person tomorrow.

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A Promise to Self

Saturday, May 26, 2012 ♥ 5/26/2012 07:56:00 PM ♥


It has been a really long long time since I have updated my long abandoned blog. I guess weeds have overgrown the whole place. I still remember the last time I mention that I will update my blog as often as possible when I start working in the new company. It is almost years now and I have not kept this promise of mine. Partly due to procrastination, partly due to my passion has burnt out. As time pass by, I seriously wonder what is there in my life I am looking forward to besides working every single day.

Work is hectic since 2 August 2010. It has also stopped me from meeting up with friends as much as I want. Is this the life I want? Spending all my youth in work & reducing my social life? I guess not. I am starting to feel lonely especially at this age when most of my friends are married with kids. Oh ya, I am starting to feel lonely & an outcast when the chat topics is none other than kids. How can I join when I do not have kids, right? Looking at the satisfied smile & joy they have on their faces make me feel proud of them. Perhaps this is what they say truly blessed with a happy family. I have been skeptical about and always will be, oh well, at least until I have found my very own happiness.

I have constantly remind myself to go home early and spend more time with family and friends. I will definitely keep this in mind this time as I do not want to burn out the passion in me. Yes, the day will come and actions speaks louder than words. I will update my blog more often too (with old posts) to remind myself of the moments I have in life. As a reminder to myself how I have spent it in the past and make some changes on how I may love it to be.

I have stopped taking pictures too. Oh no....That's so not me. I do not enjoy hanging out anymore and will rather stay home. Perhaps age do play an important role... Hey, I am not that old...Yeah, I am still young at heart or at least childish according to my friends.

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congrats, cuzzie!

Sunday, September 12, 2010 ♥ 9/12/2010 05:10:00 PM ♥




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It seems like it's just yesterday we are running around at grandma's house, playing hide and seek. I still remember how hard I wish time will just fly and I'll be an adult but now I feel like stopping the time so that I can breathe. We all have grow up and drift apart, not as close as we used to be, not sharing secrets anymore. Sometimes I can't even remember the exact time we stop doing that. Oh well, it's part of growing up, right? As long as we do keep in touch once a while, it'll be sufficient to keep the relationship going (I hope).

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I love weddings simply because it's a joyous occassion, full of blessings from everyone. Not only that, it's the time to have family gathering as well. Haha, the wedding dinner of my cuzzie, Teck that I look forward to has finally ended few months ago. I'm excited and happy to meet my cousins. Boy, they have grown up! Ok, I have grown old. I still prefer the word mature though.

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I'm beaming from ear to ear though it's not my wedding. I realise how much I miss them and our childhood. All the bittersweet memories, the mischievous, the sadness and everything that has happened during the past. Once upon a time indeed.

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To my cuzzie, Teck who is someone's hubby now, I wish you all the best in everything you do and have a blessed marriage. I will remember you as my brother who is always so cheerful and never says no when we ask for help, ok even when we don't ask for help. You are the best! Perhaps the next gathering at your new place will be a baby shower?

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The long awaited gathering

Sunday, March 28, 2010 ♥ 3/28/2010 11:56:00 PM ♥


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Don't you just love gathering? Meeting friends from your high school just to catch up with them during festive season where 'I'm really busy at work' will not be used. I just love those moments. The thoughts of reminiscing high school life though may make us sound old but nonetheless make all of us laugh at how silly we have been once upon the time.
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Though time flies and perhaps we have drifted apart or we are not as close as we used to be due to distance and time, one will will never change. Friendships never change, in fact, it grows stronger from time to time. As long as we keep in touch, those friendships will not fade or even die. That's the awe of friendships.
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Perhaps I sound emo, which is true simply because I miss them so much. Whenever I forget how to smile, the thought of familiar faces will definitely bring a smile on my face. I really appreciate their kindness and presence. Perhaps sometimes I may be annoying but they will always forgive me. Gee, life will never be the same without them. I hope we will stay as friends for years to come. Til then, xoxo... I love all of you!
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I'm so lost

Tuesday, March 02, 2010 ♥ 3/02/2010 10:28:00 PM ♥


Have you ever felt that everything that you do just doesn't seem right? The stuff that you used to do & what makes you happy no longer puts a smile on your face anyway. Somehow I just feel that my life is kind of sucks big time. Actually it's more to pathetic as I have lost my social life due to work.

If like I'm jumping from a loophole into another. Gosh, please let me feel the excitement in anything I do. I really don't have a life anymore. It's just so sad.

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the long forgotten closure

Sunday, February 21, 2010 ♥ 2/21/2010 04:22:00 PM ♥


All that remain of you are my memories from today onwards. I have forgotten when I have truly let go of you. Time has truly washed out the pain and sweet memories I once hold on to. Perhaps you are just another stranger from now on. Perhaps we will never be able to look at each other in the eye while we chat. Perhaps you don't even want anything to do with me since the day you make that decision. Everything has changed as we grow up.

I have been too busy with work until I have forgotten to make changes to my personal things. I think it all started when I have cancelled my CIMB atm card not long ago. The most trusted card that I use every single moment during college life. The memories of you that were kept there.

Now, I delete the friendster account which I have not logged in since I have opened a facebook account. Although friendster account is avenue that I posted my feelings for you. The avenue where I try to keep you alive as I'm so afraid that I might forget you. I guess it doesn't matter now. I have moved on long time ago. I have not even tried to back up anything at all. Perhaps that is the way I bury you.

Goodbye, my friend. Perhaps some things are just not meant to be. You are not my first boyfriend and never will be. He's out there somewhere (I think).

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hohoho..horlicks! erm, i mean merry christmas!

Sunday, January 10, 2010 ♥ 1/10/2010 10:50:00 PM ♥


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Chrismas eve marked the last festive celebration for me in year 2009. This time, I spent my Chrismas eve with Michy and her former college mate, ah boy. Yeah, lesser people this year but we still had fun! haha, most of the time, camwhoring and chatting away while checking what other people were doing. Sound kind of boring? Nah, especially if you are doing it with friends.
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Michy had helped ah boy by getting him a girlfriend. :P Though she's really quiet and shy that night but she did entertained us for the rest of the day. Hey, there's a child in everyone of us! It's not okay to be childish once a while. ;)
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For the very first time, Michy actually slept at my house. haha, it's not a proper sleepover session so we didn't do anything much as all of us were so tired and sleepy, after a long day's work. Perhaps should organise a sleepover in the future. Gosh, it's been a long time since anyone organises one.
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I'm too tired now as I have to OT tomorrow, yes, again. Pictures speak louder than words. Just use your imagination to picture the fun we had. The full set of pictures will be uploaded in my facebook soon (well, hopefully).
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It's Just A Lie!

Monday, November 09, 2009 ♥ 11/09/2009 12:34:00 PM ♥


I have an announcement to make now. I'm still alive. It is kind of ironic actually as I leave my audit life to commercial line in hope to discover a more relaxed working life only to find out that it is still the same unless I work in a small company. For friends out there who cheat about being extremely free when working in commercial line, thanks and the penalty is you don't get to see me for months.

The only good news is the office is relocated to 1 Tech Park which is so much nearer to my house. The bad news is since it's much nearer to my house, I actually don't have to worry that I will miss lrt so I work extra late. Gee, I think it's safe to say that I have turned into a workaholic. Perhaps I should decorate my workstation to be more cozy as I spend most of my time there. Now I'm considering whether I should bring my pillow to office.

I guess it's time to change my hairstyle to make myself happy and continue to enjoy my working life. Another thing to ponder. Hmm... What should I do with my hair?

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i thought i was going blind!

Tuesday, August 18, 2009 ♥ 8/18/2009 10:18:00 PM ♥


After reaching home from dinner in the curve, I removed my contact lens as usual. I was shocked when my right eye vision was totally blur even though I was wearing my glasses. Boy, I got a shock of my life. I thought I was going blind.

Thinking that my new contact lens was torn, and must have left on my cornea, I screamed for my sis for help. oh well, the lens was perfectly fine without a tear but my vision was blur. It did not help much when I got panic easily. It's just like an automated switch in me which would be powered on whenever I worry bout something. There was an invisible shiny layer on my right cornea and I attempted to remove it, thinking it was the leftover from the contacts. Yes, I know, itchy fingers which caused me the eye infection, swelling and irritation.

I frantically dialed a few friends mobile phone numbers but they were busy with their own agendas. in the end, I forced Jimn and Feing to come to my house to pick me up and send me to the eye specialist. My parents were not at home at that time and though mum's car was parked outside the gate, I could not drive as the last time I drove was during my driving license test 8 years ago. Gosh, no eye specialist was available after 11pm.

Plus there was no 24hours clinic near my place. I became extremely scared, thinking and imagining how life would be if I'm blind. Ok, the poor couple had to put up with my dramatic imagination and obviously I could not calm down though they tried their bset to comfort me.

After visiting Tropicana Medical Centre and Damansara Medical Centre, I still could not get my eyes checked so in the end I decided to try finding a 24-hour clinic in Damansara Uptown. Could you believe it? I worked there for like a year and 9 months but I did not realise that a clinic was there. Ok, perhaps many of you would have guess how on earth could this blur girl notice such a big clinic. I had to admit that I could be that blur.

Anyway, the doctor said my eyes was perfectly fine and if I did not try to touch my cornea with my fingers, I would be fine within 24 hours. It could be due to allergy as it was a new brand of contact lens that i recently bought. Good to hear that I was not going to be blind. Haha, guess what? The doctor had to put up with my belief that my lens tore and some part of it was in my right eye. She checked it twice for me while smiling but it turned into laughter soon. I guess she must have thought that I was a childish patient. I believe I was at that moment.

Gosh, a really bad record coz I took 4 MCs wuthin 2 months and I have not passed my probation period whereas I did not take any MC for bout a year and a half. Gee.... Haiz... Wish me luck!

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i have a watch! yes, finally

Sunday, July 26, 2009 ♥ 7/26/2009 09:49:00 PM ♥


I have finally bought a watch! Yeah, finally. I have sensitive skin so most of the time I will not dare to wear a watch as my wrist will turn red and start to itch. Well, I will check out watches from time to time, eying on a watch to purchase that suits my taste and skin condition.

I fall in love with this watch and decide to get it in the end after consulting mii. Haha... yeah, I still consult mii before I buy some stuff. You know, the fact that mii is always right! Don't worry, I'll definitely wear this watch when I go out. Ok, at least I hope since it's been a long time since I've worn a watch. Perhaps I will accidentally forget bout my watch. You know me! :P

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family time

Sunday, July 19, 2009 ♥ 7/19/2009 12:51:00 PM ♥


Since young, after dinner on weekdays or Sundays, dad will bring us for a walk in the shopping malls. Most of the time, it's for window shopping plus leisure time together with the family. A type of exercise after a heavy dinner. It's been like a ritual thing. I guess it really does explain the reason I visit the shopping malls often even if it's just for window shopping. The memories of being together with the family.

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As I grow older, moving out from house for college and now staying with family again, the shopping time with family has become much lesser. Mainly because all of us have grown up and wanting to have some alone time with friends. As usual, I'm not the type of girl who can stay being too distant from the family.

So guess what I do on one Sunday? Yeah, going to Pavilion with my mii and sis. Mii needs to get her facial care while I just window shop til mii sees a green handbag that she thinks suits me. As we are not from a rich family background, sometimes buying things make me think twice especially when there is no discount on particular item. Yeah, just believe it. I may not look like a poor girl but it's true. Now that I start working and owning credit cards, you can figure the rest.

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Anyway, there is this lucky draw promotion in parkson with female and Dior as the sponsors. Mii buys her facial care while we try our luck in the lucky draw. What can I say? Lucky me that I win an eyeshadow pallette worth rm185 from Dior and a foundation with spf. Ok, I'm not a big fan of Dior mainly because I don't put on make up but it's seriously a nice treat.

Plus we can get shopping vouchers as well. Mii is kind is enough to give me her shopping vouchers so I buy that green handbag. Lol. Ok, i swipe my card plus deduct the points from the packson privilege card. I feel better and not feeling so guilty over my treat.

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Ahh, have you guys seen the wishing well in front of Pavilion? It looks kind of simple during the day but it's amazing during the night with all the colourful lights. A magical wishing well it may seem. It's no surprise that we take few pictures with it. Just for the record, no, I haven't make my wish to the well yet as I believe sometimes we need to be careful over what we wish for.

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moments like this

Sunday, July 12, 2009 ♥ 7/12/2009 09:40:00 AM ♥


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Gee, don't you just miss going on a vacation with your family? Oh well, though it's kind of noisy in the car with all the bickering with siblings plus nagging from parents, you will treasure it for life especially when you are getting older. At least I treasure those moments even more. It's kind of rare that we can find time for each other anymore especially when we have our own life and friends. Please enjoy and treasure moments you can spend with your close ones.

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You will be surprised at how time flies. It feels like nanoseconds even more after I start working. Every seconds counts and contributes to my memory. Gosh, I dread the day when we can meet much lesser after we move out of papa's house to start our own family. Ok, perhaps it's not so soon for me or even not in a lifetime but my sisters are sure growing up. No more bickering, arguments, disagreements or sarcasm from siblings. Feel so stripped.


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Sometimes I do wonder how long can we stay so close-knitted? Will we be strangers in ten years' time? Or are we still really close to each other despite distance? Only time will tell and this post is really going to be important to remind me of my fear of the future. Gee, do i need to emphasize more on how much i hate uncertainty?

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Papa is still our chauffeur all the years though sometimes he's not at home so mii will take over his place.

I still remember vividly the way i hugged my papa tightly when I was 6 years old. We were on his motorbike with kerry in the basket. It was then I tell myself that I will not ever ride on a motorbike after i grow up. Though the breeze felt so cold when it brushed my cheeks, I fear of falling and getting myself killed or hurt. Papa was there for me but knowing myself for being clumsy, I was constantly in a panic mood.

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Papa is much older now. Ok, I think it's because he looks older than his age but nonetheless, he's not as strong as he used to be. He gets tired easily plus cranky most of the time. have I mention that papa dislikes us chatting in the car as he feels so left out? Haha, mii knows every name we mention during the conversations with my siblings but papa is totally clueless. I guess I inherited my hatred towards uncertainty from him. Yeah, clumsiness and being forgetful from mii while hate of being lonely and left out from papa. See, it's not totally my fault after all. :P


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Baby sis is no longer my baby sis anymore. She has her own stand and opinion. karen has turned into a good shopping companion and my confidante, replacing kerry who is always not at home. Our age difference is 7years but now I don't feel the age gap any longer. Haha... it's either she's more matured for her age or I have turned into more childish.


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Evelyn is always the wild card as I can never understand her. We will argue most of the time. Most of the time, I will pick on her but I don't do it on purpose. I just can't accept her sense of fashion most of the time. Yeah, everyone has his or her own preference and taste but I'm still unable to accept the difference. I will try to learn not to nag at her all the time but I'm sure I won't succeed. Sometimes being a perfectionist is a hazard.


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I really do wish that we will stick to each other and be there for each other through thick and thin. I'm aware of the fact I'm being quite impossible and demanding towards my family members simpky because I assume that they will understand I want the best for each and everyone of them. People always assume that I'm good with words but actually, I'm not. I tend to assume everyone will just understand my actions. I have to admit sometimes i dont even understand myself. How can I expect others to understand me, right?


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I guess I'll be the way I am for the the moment, in hope that I will learn to express myself even better in the future. Please bear with me for the time being.

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from audit assistant to accounts assistant

Monday, June 15, 2009 ♥ 6/15/2009 11:24:00 PM ♥


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Yeah, as most of you have known, I start my work today. Waking up at 6am is definitely tough especially when it has been a long time since I wake up at this hour. It doesn't help when I don't get enough sleep. Oh well, I get cold feet as it's my very first time being an accounts assistant. Both my previous work require me to check on accountants' work but this time, I'm doing the accounting. It's not like I have not done accounting during the course of my previous work, it's changing working environment that scares me.

What more can I say? So far so good. *winks* I'm glad that my colleagues are really friendly and patient. My mentor is a really nice lady, being really patient in coaching me to use the accounting software. I'm so afraid that i might make lots of blunder considering at still a greenhorn at this.

I'm really tired now, having a long day at work plus being stuck in the jam just for dinner. I will blog more bout the outings I previously attend soon. Don't worry bout me because I'm still alive.

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how time flies?

Monday, May 18, 2009 ♥ 5/18/2009 09:36:00 PM ♥


Have you ever wondered how time flies? It's going to be my exam soon, less than 2 weeks but I've not done anything. Thanks for my procrastination and drama series addiction. Gee, I'm in a total mess. I know crossing my fingers now and hope for the best is not a good solution at all. I need to take actions and make some remedies ( That's what i hope).

Anyway, looking at the bright side, at least I've updated my resumes in Jobstreet and Jobsdb. A few employers have requested for my resume; that's a good thing. I've tried applying for some as well. I've done interview today, another one is awaiting for me next week while other job applications are still under consideration. Wish me luck. I really need it because there are so many applicants out there as well.

I never know that job hunting and interviews are tough. Mainly because I've got my previous two jobs after my first interview. Yeah, that's right! Got the job on the spot. I have to wait for 2 weeks' notice before I know the interview results now. Kind of a new thing to me, but oh well, I think I can survive that. lol.. I need a job ASAP as my cash is running low, my cash flow is not that liquid after all. Please let me succeed in getting the job. *keeping my fingers crossed*

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the surprise attack

Monday, May 11, 2009 ♥ 5/11/2009 01:37:00 PM ♥


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this is a long overdue post bout my 25th surprise birthday party which takes place on 28th february 2009. yaya, it's way long overdue but knowing that i procrastinate a lot, this is kind of normal. anyway, first of way, thanks to shaz and chris who take the effort to make it happen! shaz who tricks me that he doesn't allow my sis to join us for dinner while chris who plans it with karen. the three of them are really good at this! i'm overjoyed and almost in my tears. no, i'm not a drama queen!

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have i mention bout i'm being punished to stand on the chair even though it's my birthday? haha...reminds me of year 1996 where my classmates and i always standing on the chair for being noisy, it's not even us but we are wronged. so sad but true.
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of course, not to mention the guests. they are extremely funny and chatty :D if not for them, i will have another boring birthday being celebrated alone.
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it's a small private party so i'm so sorry if you aren't being invited. i promise to invite you when i plan to hold a birthday party. the list of guests are:
michy, who has been nothing but helpful throughout my life. though sometimes she can be really dramatic but hey, all of us need some dramas in our life, right?
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my sis, evelyn who gives me a surprise by joining my friends and i. she's the homely girl in Lim family. i guess most of you will agree to that if u see her.
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karen, the lil devil who makes the plan with chris and keeps me in the dark all the while. oh well, i love you! mainly coz you balance out my life. lol...an angel definitely needs the devil :P
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joann, a really sweet and cute girl or should i say lady? she's really good at having good conversations, making all of us laugh non stop *winks*
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mikel, a lovely guy with a great sense of fashion. to date, i've not seen him looking shabby. he's always the fashion forward guy.
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isaac, whom i know from shaz. an IT-whiz kid who is really sweet and friendly. he's there to celebrate my birthday last year too. oops, that also reminds me that i've not blog bout it yet. but oh well, it's a backlog post so we'll just keep it in my heart :P
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zoe, the lil girl whom chris always talk bout. she's not as blunt as many think she is if compared to me :P for me, she's still the sweet lil girl who smiles all the time.
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last but not least, the two pranksters! the ones who keep me in the dark til the very last minute just to give me a surprise birthday party. ok, you guys win hands down simply because this is the only party where i don't even suspect. the two kiddo guys. yes, trust me when i say the both of them are really childish. having the both of them together makes me tired from nagging at them.
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