Gee, don't you just miss going on a vacation with your family? Oh well, though it's kind of noisy in the car with all the bickering with siblings plus nagging from parents, you will treasure it for life especially when you are getting older. At least I treasure those moments even more. It's kind of rare that we can find time for each other anymore especially when we have our own life and friends. Please enjoy and treasure moments you can spend with your close ones.
You will be surprised at how time flies. It feels like nanoseconds even more after I start working. Every seconds counts and contributes to my memory. Gosh, I dread the day when we can meet much lesser after we move out of papa's house to start our own family. Ok, perhaps it's not so soon for me or even not in a lifetime but my sisters are sure growing up. No more bickering, arguments, disagreements or sarcasm from siblings. Feel so stripped.
Sometimes I do wonder how long can we stay so close-knitted? Will we be strangers in ten years' time? Or are we still really close to each other despite distance? Only time will tell and this post is really going to be important to remind me of my fear of the future. Gee, do i need to emphasize more on how much i hate uncertainty?
Papa is still our chauffeur all the years though sometimes he's not at home so mii will take over his place.
I still remember vividly the way i hugged my papa tightly when I was 6 years old. We were on his motorbike with kerry in the basket. It was then I tell myself that I will not ever ride on a motorbike after i grow up. Though the breeze felt so cold when it brushed my cheeks, I fear of falling and getting myself killed or hurt. Papa was there for me but knowing myself for being clumsy, I was constantly in a panic mood.
Papa is much older now. Ok, I think it's because he looks older than his age but nonetheless, he's not as strong as he used to be. He gets tired easily plus cranky most of the time. have I mention that papa dislikes us chatting in the car as he feels so left out? Haha, mii knows every name we mention during the conversations with my siblings but papa is totally clueless. I guess I inherited my hatred towards uncertainty from him. Yeah, clumsiness and being forgetful from mii while hate of being lonely and left out from papa. See, it's not totally my fault after all. :P
Baby sis is no longer my baby sis anymore. She has her own stand and opinion. karen has turned into a good shopping companion and my confidante, replacing kerry who is always not at home. Our age difference is 7years but now I don't feel the age gap any longer. Haha... it's either she's more matured for her age or I have turned into more childish.
Evelyn is always the wild card as I can never understand her. We will argue most of the time. Most of the time, I will pick on her but I don't do it on purpose. I just can't accept her sense of fashion most of the time. Yeah, everyone has his or her own preference and taste but I'm still unable to accept the difference. I will try to learn not to nag at her all the time but I'm sure I won't succeed. Sometimes being a perfectionist is a hazard.
I really do wish that we will stick to each other and be there for each other through thick and thin. I'm aware of the fact I'm being quite impossible and demanding towards my family members simpky because I assume that they will understand I want the best for each and everyone of them. People always assume that I'm good with words but actually, I'm not. I tend to assume everyone will just understand my actions. I have to admit sometimes i dont even understand myself. How can I expect others to understand me, right?
I guess I'll be the way I am for the the moment, in hope that I will learn to express myself even better in the future. Please bear with me for the time being.Labels: lil chatty chat, lil party princess
♥ kyliemc ♥
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