my memory
hmm....finally i've decided to blog bout him.a guy who has taught me many things.someone whom i've hurted without realising it.someone whom i cared for but never dared to show my true feelings when i'm standing right in front of him.guess i finally manage to keep him in my memory as a friend who has always been there for me.though i constantly still think of the things i've done to hurt him[and vice versa],i actually get over him at last,without me realising it.maybe his presence do make me realise something.wake me up when the next perfect guy appears right in front of my eyes.anyways,i never realise that i've get over him til that day.
i will always feel his presence no matter how crowded the place was.my heartbeat will increase and i feel nervous.it has always been the case.and i will look around to find him amongst the crowd.i can recognise his back anywhere at all.it only takes me a glimpse at his back and i can immediately identify that it is him.we will meet each other unexpectedly.sometimes i think that it is quite freaky.think that someone is playing a trick on us.gee,sometimes i feel that it is totally unfair that i have to go through all those agonising moments but finally i realise that it is just a lesson.a lesson being taught by a guy who has always love me[back then] but doesnt dare to admit.well,actions speak louder than words.though some may deny the fact that he once loved me but nothing need to be proven.those who were there and gone through the pain or see us in pain would know.
guess i finally had put the past behind.i was yum cha-ing wif michy,cheekyboy and gong gong.i suddenly saw a guy who looked like him.it took me quite long to figure out whether it was him.i just kept quiet.he changed lots.he didnt look like the guy i once knew.somehow,that guy looked quite distant.all the excitement i used to have when i saw him had died down.i was pondering to myself for quite long.i didnt see any other familiar faces to ensure that it was him.he used his hp to take pics with his friends and screaming so loud.ok,that's him alright.erm,he used to scream or talked loudly so that i would notice him.
haha,i finally found the gut to make this entry.yaya,big achievement,considering i dont usually tell people my deepest secret.many of you may be able to guess who this guy is but it's not really important right now.i hope that he will lead an extremely happy life.i thank him for appearing in my life and teaches me so many things,especially on how to treasure guys who cares for me and love me for who i am deep inside,not how i look like outside.everything sure happens for a reason....every moment together[or with many other people] will be in my memory,serve as pointers on how to treat the next guy in my life better.*wink wink*
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