what's wrong with me?
guess i'm not the same bubbly gurl tht many ppl know. recently many ppl are asking me whether something is bothering me. i'm not talking as much as previously. i can stay home all day without even pestering mum to bring me out. when dad asks me to go shopping, i actually turn him down as i wanna lock myself in the room to sleep or online. kinda anti-social nowadays.
i've been rejecting frens' invi for outings esp those nite outings as i wanna stay home to hug my small bolster. i've been locking my room quite often when normally i'll leave the door ajar. parents hv been checking whether i'm home asleep at nite and to their surprise, i'm already at home as early as 12am. kerry is surprised when i tell her tht i wanna sleep at 10pm. she thinks tht i'm sick.
lately mum has been calling my name non stop when she's chatting with me as i seem to be not listening. karen has been telling me her interesting life but i hv to really force myself to listen and not let my mind wander off. i misread sms very often til my friends hv to call up to ask me whether i'm fine. i dont laugh as much as previously which is supposed to be good news for many ppl coz i cant stop laughing once i start to laugh. there's no 'off' button. ppl find it strange when i only manage a smile when everyone else is laughing their ass off. erm, is there something really wrong with me?
i still go to class knowing tht ann wont be going which means i'll hv to keep quiet the whole day. i purposely use the long way to the washroom in coll as i wanna avoid speaking to ppl i know. haiz, am i in the midst of depression? all my cute teddies are on the floor lying around but i dun even care. they are like my life but now i juz dun care bout them. one of the small lil teddies is still missing but i'm not worried at all. i lose my ipod shuffle somewhere in my room but i dun even bother to search for it. my room is in a mess as if tornado has hit my room.
i hv stop dolling up when i go out or attend class. i'll just grab any outfit tht is within my sight. yee, my friends say tht i suddenly look so auntie. i cant sleep at nite, waking almost every hr. i feel so tired the next day. the lappie is in front of me all the time when i'm supposed to be studying. hope i'll be back to normal soon.Labels: lil chatty chat
♥ kyliemc ♥
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