S.T.R.E.S.S.E.D
gosh, is it really true that i'm too soft-hearted at time? i guess being compassionate at my own expense is the last thing that cross my mind. i have contemplated for very long time before posting this entry. i seriously can't take the stress any longer as it seriously is extremely taxing. plus it's not even my problem in the first place. gee, i think option 1 is the best( some of you may not know what's option 1 but it's ok because me don't want to elaborate on this matter) but it seems like perhaps option 2 is even better as i can just ignore and escape everything.
over the years i have to admit that whenever people ask me whether any guys are going after me i actually deny it. the truth is of course there is but it's just that i don't want people to ask too much especially if they know the guys too. they are already so sad and i don't want to make things worst for them. anyway, this time it's not the same. someone likes my friend but she totally ignores him. the end result is he pesters and annoys me big time. it's not like i don't have my own personal life. she's close with me but that doesn't mean that i have to be with her 24/7. sometimes close friends need some time alone to be with someone else in order to retain our friendship. she has her own circle of friends and so do i. i've already lost many chances to hang out with most of my friends and i regret it big time as most of them are already working in foreign countries.
i just don't understand the reason that someone has to be so persistent. it's not like i've not related to him that i have my own stress and problems too. it's not like i've not explained my predicament to him but he just doesn't understand it. i don't even use fancy words. the biggest problem is he likes my friend and wants me to be by her side all the time. he thinks the both of us don't have to work. though we don't meet as much but that doesn't mean that we don't chat on the phone or sms. he tries to plan outings for us and force me to chat with her. as if i don't do that when he doesn't tell me to so. just in case some of you may not know, i hate it when people force me to do something. in fact, i will not do it on purpose. if you are smart, just manipulate using the fact that i can't say no and not force me to do something just because you want something to be achieved.
don't get the wrong idea that i like the guy because he's far from the type of guy that i have eyes on. it's really funny because i'm actually stressed over my friend's clingy admirer. ish... even my most clingy admirer understands that he needs to give me time and space for my own good. though he may feel hurt but at least i won't hate him and he's part of my life too. i guess not all guys know this concept after all. my friend's admirer doesn't understand this concept. he always says he got it but he obviously doesn't. if he does, he'll leave me alone. if i really can't take it anymore, i'll encourage my friends not to be close with him as it's really taxing both mentally and physically.
perhaps many of you may think that i'm dramatic but if you know the truth, you won't ever think the same again. imagine someone just sms or calls you to remind you to go out with her and must, i repeat must call her or go out with her. he calls or sms you every single day without fail though you are busy or too tired after work til you accidentally fall asleep. it's even worst than stalkers as it doesn't even concern bout me. he likes my friend but he just don't leave me again. help!!! i feel as though i'm standing right at the edge of a cliff with my back facing the cliff and my right foot hanging in the air. my left foot is just too weak to support my weight so a gentle jolt will just kill me. i'm bout to lose my sanity. i seriously need a break!
p/s: my dear friend, if you are reading this, you better treat me better as your problem has suddenly bring me lots of stress. i guess my face has turn from being an auntie into a grandma.Labels: lil chatty chat
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