hello~ year 2008!!
ok, i've not been jotting down my new year resolutions every year because i know most of them are not achievable anyway. i always think that next year will be another great year to start and i've been procrastinating it for far too long. i'll be 24 years old next year. totally an adult and soon i'll be in my late 20s. muahaha... many people been telling me that they don't know that i'm that mature. ish... of course i'm mature since i'm the eldest in my family of 4 girls but sometimes being childish or appear to be childish save me from a lot of situation.
for example, if i accidentally offend someone, that person will think in their head: "haiz.. what can i do, she's so childish. i will just forgive her." thus i'm off the hook. easy, huh? but it's not always the best solution. normally people will realise my maturity when they are in their sad moments because i tend to step in and support them emotionally.
back to my new year resolution. i guess it's best set 10 first and if i've achieved any of them i'll reward myself. it's really tough to achieve most of them knowing how weak i am when it comes to emotional struggle.
the big 10 will be:
1. learn how to say NO!
this is tough as i always don't know how to reject other people's request. i will change my initial plans if someone appears to be too lonely and asks me to accompany him/her or help him/her to do something. be it s/he tell it straight to my face or use his/her eyes. gosh, sometimes it's at my own expense. friends have been telling me not to be too compassionate or care too much but i just can't resist myself from feeling guilty if i don't help or accompany that person.
2. not buying or wearing anything pink(including undergarments) for at least once a month
ok, stop laughing right now. i'll try to achieve this. i will try to resist myself. i promise! please remind me, k? pink is just such a sweet and cute colour. it's too difficult to resist. i need time. please have faith in me.
3. learn how to drive again
i'll definitely learn how to drive again but i just don't know when will i do that. i can't driev my parents' car. i just hope that dad suddenly has several big projects and thinks taht his poor daughter needs a car. thus he pay for the downpayment and i'll pay the instalments, toll and fuel. erm, driving at night will be scary too because i'm afraid of the ghost. may the force be with me.
4. get an advancement in career
yeah, i don't want to wake up every hour at night because i'm too stress up at work not because of the workload but it's the office politics. it's so tiring and i guess look like an old lady right now and if it continues, my vainpot termometer will burst. i want to enjoy my work and learn lots of things to increase my experience and knowledge.
5. get a credit card and manage my own finance
i ust have to get a credit card because i can't make purchases online if i don't have a credit card. besides if i'm using a credit card, i can get discounts in some stores. oops, more reason to spend? i believe i can control myself. so far i have manage my own finance well. i have to admit taht i appear to be a high maintenance girl but actually i'm not one because i only spend if i can afford it. besides, i'm using my own money and i can be financially independent besides contributing to support the family.
6. make an effort to meet up with old friends more frequently
though they are understanding, i must not cancel their plans at last minute because of anyone else who appears to need me more. thus, i must first achieve resolution number 1. many of them feel so happy that i call or sms them occasionally but deep in their heart they want to meet up with me in person. lol...i know i'm not VIP but i certainly do make them miss me so much! actually i miss all of you too. seriously miss all of you. miss being teased and talk sarcasticaly without being afraid that i have hurt anyone's feelings because we know each other too well and that's the way we show that we care.
7. take public transport alone
yeah, i know that i'm totally useless and helpless when it comes to taking public transport alone. i'm afraid that i'll get lost though i know the route well. i lack of self confidence and always rely on my sisters or friends when i have to take public transport. be it having them to travel with me or call them countless to affirm, re-affirm, confirm, re-confirm, etc. sometimes i even need karen to be with me though she doesn't know the details because i feel safe when she's around.
8. celebrate my birthday!
every year i can't celebrate my birthday properly because friends just have to work OT. though it's chinese new year month and there are lots of things to be done due to breaks during chinese new year but employees need some time with friends too. that's so sad, k? luckily michy's there to accompany me. i mean i don't mind not having a birthday cake or not having to blow the candles. just need my friends to celebrate my birthday with me. ok, make sure you are free in the month of february. or march if there's time constraint. there's 29 days in february next year. oh ya, that reminds me that geetha has a birthday next year. lol...
9. spend more quality time with family
i've been neglecting my family for quite some time til dad has to pre-book my schedule and asks me to join them for dinner. as a result, i have to give them a treat. muahaha...poor dad. he has to do that few days earlier or even weeks. oops... i have to admit at some point in time i don't even chat with my dad or karen because when they are in, i'm our and vice versa. my dad reminds me i'm not staying in a hotel. *blushes*
10. make a decision bout which model of tech gadgets to purchase
i break my own mobile phone. it drops too many times previously and it ends its life in the end. i still don't know which model to buy. i'm going to buy SE mobile phones but which series? k or w series? gosh, it's just so difficult to make a decision. i want to buy a digicam too but which model to buy? i'm so indecisive. gee...
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